I am very good at deception. Delusion. Self-delusion, especially.

Self-delusion (Self`-de*lu"sion) , n.

The act of deluding one's self, or the state of being thus deluded.

A common criticism of positive thinking is that it’s self-delusion. Images of Saturday Night Live’s Daily Affirmations with Stuart Smalley come to mind: “I’m good enough, I’m smart enough, and doggone it, people like me!”

I happen to think this criticism is perfectly valid. I don’t do daily affirmations or recommend them to others because I think they’re a waste of time. Too much positive thinking can lead to self-delusion. You experience a false sense of growth because you lower your awareness, blinding yourself to your problems instead of truly facing them. As a general rule of personal development, whenever you do something that lowers your awareness instead of raises it, you’re making a mistake.

Personal growth is more than merely conditioning yourself to feel better about your life. While some people clearly need an attitudinal adjustment to make progress, the optimal attitude for personal growth doesn’t arise from self-delusional positive thinking. You don’t need positive thinking for personal growth. You simply need intelligence.

If you find that your personal growth efforts are in conflict with what your intelligence is telling you, trust your own intelligence, regardless of what anyone else says, including me. (raku)

Positive thinking can reduce intelligence by lowering awareness. Instead of facing your real problems and challenges, you try to write them off with affirmations. That isn’t the way to grow. It’s better to face and accept the whole truth, even if you don’t like what you see. A little pain now and then isn’t going to kill you.

Steve Pavlina

You scored a total of 91

It is highly likely that you are presently suffering from adult attention deficit disorder, according to your responses on this self-report questionnaire. You should not take this as a diagnosis of any sort, or a recommendation for treatment. However, it would be advisable and likely beneficial for you to seek further diagnosis from a trained mental health professional immediately.

I guess that's where all my random tots are coming from.

I'm just very tired. Tired of everything. There isn't really anything to live for. Why am I on this world anyway.

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
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