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jieyi

20

23rd oct 1988

temping in jurong port

alumni of MI

a crazy girl


*__lust & wishiies.in.darkness



to pass jlpt 1

to get into NUS

to get a clit piercing

to pass JPLT 2

to go japan

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jay chou

my crush

HIM



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wai kian(my bro)
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Sunday, August 20, 2006

woke up at 7 today for thw national walk-a-jog thingy. DIn managed to run the whole thing tho. There were too many pple. It is hard to move in such a big crowd. Din manage to get anything from the lucky draw too. I wanted the bike or the air tickets but i dun have the luck.

I am going to lose my fats. Lost 1 kg liao. Muz continue. Haha...I cannot imagine how I will look like if I lose 1kg everyday.

promos is coming nearer and nearer everyday. It seems that everyday is a busy day but yet I am moving so slowly in a fast-paced world.


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woke up super early today due to my brother beating me. I dun see the fuss abt me slping in his bed for a little while la. I always do that. Like my cousin's bed. I juz roll and roll..haha..

went to meet winnie 1st to try on the uniform, shirt actually and then the belt. It fitted juz nice for both la. I cannot imagine wad i will do if i'm fatter.

den went club today.

I'm tired.


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Tuesday, August 15, 2006

played bball with shuusuke, sufian, eiji and some others. It was so funny. We have lots of funny encounters. Like passing to the wrong team members, team members snatching a ball from each other and others. Shuusuke was funny, he keep on missing the ball at 1st..we were laughing so hard that we couldn't get the ball.lol..

later, we played another match..shuusuke, sufian and I one team and eiji, 1 malay guy and gal on another. We won the match by 1 pt, with me so tired out in the end. almost 1 1/2 hr continuous match without resting. Shuusuke is so cute. His 3 pointer is super accurate la.

After the match, eiji, shuusuke and sufian congratulated me for making the last shot. Later, shuusuke, sufian and I got onto the same bus home...totemo totemo ureshii..


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Sunday, August 13, 2006

juz nw, i was reading's megumi's blog...what a pair of lost friends that we are..

in search of the light...the light that we hope and dread for at the same time..the time of darkness...

to be swallowed up by the darkness...others might think that darkness is scary but i agree with megumi...we have learnt to live with it..instead, i find taht the light is scary at times..in the dark, u can pretend nt to see anything but in the light, u cnt...the sharpness of the light makes the worse cuts, even more than the invisible cuts that u get in the dark..

for me, trust for pple doesn't come very easily..sometimes i do make comments that i do nt mean..and i wear a mask out in public..i juz cnt bring myself to trust pple anymore...


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Saturday, August 12, 2006

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How to make a xie jie yi
Ingredients:

3 parts anger

1 part humour

5 parts leadership
Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add sadness to taste! Do not overindulge!
jieyi Highway
Dumpsville6
Lake Love16
Study Hall62
Wealthville128
Bankruptcity373
Please Drive Carefully



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went to expo today for the library sale..there were so many pple that i really feel like going home man..as i was the 1st to reach, i went to eat duck porridge while waiting for daichi and harumi...akiha msged me that she juz woke up when i was already at the expo la!! she is super pro..naoya was really late too...he din buy anything in the end..harumi bought only 2 items while daichi bought 9...hehe..i bought the most..12...

den we took the train and when home..naoya was the 1st to alight cuz he wanted to go to town...as for harumi, she gt down at queenstown while daichi and i, at clementi..

as it wasstill early, i tot that i would take a nap and i eneded up slping all the way to 8..blah...when i woke up, my mum told me that asae called me and asked me y i din go to club...super sorry leh, asae...din mind to skip but i juz fell aslp...gomen ne...

blah...what love?
like i told akiha, my feelings for shuusuke is weird..i feel irriated by his actions sometimes...
but there are times i really like him so it is like damn weird..

i cnt wait for mon..staying at hme is super boring and dunno for wad reason, i always feel slpy when i'm at hme..i really think that my house have sleeping bugs which love to bite me..


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planning to celebrate keiko's b'dae with ayuta..is a miracle that ayuta would msg me cuz he is more of the silent type..

ayuta gt c5 for chinese..have to reatke..blah..it's ok..but the thing is that he cnt go 4 sports day liao..

met shuusuke at the canteen today...but sch is stupid..i mean, we only have 2 periods of lessons today la..rest of the day is free period..wad rubbish..at least i have the malay lesson to look forward to..

i really think that harumi and daichi are couple la..i mean, they are really close to each other lor..
toyoha even shouted out in class la...come on, they make it until super obvious lor..

tml going to the book sale at expo with harumi, daichi,akiha and naoya..i'm going there super early to queue...

to say the truth, minna to expo e ikanai to omou...the feeling is juz...kirai...dunno hw to describe...

saikin, minna ga daikirai..totemo totemo..zenzen wakaranaishi, chotto hen ne..demo sa, hitori de mo daikirai ne...


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Thursday, August 10, 2006

In a Past Life...
You Were: A Genius Magician.
Where You Lived: Japan.
How You Died: Typhoid fever.


You Are 44% Abnormal
You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul.
You are at high risk for having a borderline personality. It is very likely that you are a chaotic mess.
You are at medium risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is somewhat likely that you are in love with your own reflection.
You are at medium risk for having a social phobia. It is somewhat likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.
You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.



Your Inner Child Is Scared
Like a kid, you tend to shy away from new experiences.You prefer what's tried and true - novelty is scary!New foods, new places, and new friends are difficult for you to deal with.Some say you're predictable, but you enjoy being comfortable.


You are Agnostic
You're not sure if God exists, and you don't care.For you, there's no true way to figure out the divine.You rather focus on what you can control - your own life.And you tend to resent when others "sell" religion to you.


You Are Somewhat Machiavellian
You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead...But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself.You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place.You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!



You Will Die at Age 73
You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...And how you'll die as well.


You Have A Type A Personality
You are hyper, energetic, and always on the moodYou tend to succeed at everything you attemptAnd if you don't succeed at first, you quickly climb your way to the top!
You could be called a workaholic, but you also make time for funAs long as it's high energy and competitive, you're interestedYou have the perfect personality for business and atheltic success


What Your Face Says
At first glance, people see you as confident and determined.
Overall, your true self is moody and dynamic.
With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.
In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.
In stressful situations, you seem selfish and moody.





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You Are Likely a First Born

At your darkest moments, you feel guilty.At work and school, you do best when you're researching.When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often.
In friendship, you are considerate and compromising.Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking.You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.

What Your Soul Really Looks Like
You are very passionate and quite temperamental. While you can be moody, you always crave comfort.
You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds.
You believe that people see you as larger than life and important. While this is true, they also think you're a bit full of yourself.
Your near future is a lot like the present, and as far as you're concerned, that's a very good thing.
For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

You Should Get a PhD in Liberal Arts (like political science, literature, or philosophy)
You're a great thinker and a true philosopher.You'd make a talented professor or writer.

You Are a Schoolgirl!
You're not quite as wild as a "kogyaru", but with your short plaid skirtand silly white socks, you're still a sexual fetish object.You can usually be seen hanging out in the girly section of the video game places,collecting photobooth stickers of you and your friends. You may not be as innocent as you look.Did those vending machine panties once belong to you?

How You Are In Love
You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.
You tend to give more than take in relationships.
You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

Your Birthdate: October 23
You're not good at any one thing, and that's the problem.You're good at so much - you never know what to do.Change is in your blood, and you don't stick to much for long.You are destined for a life of travel and fun.
Your strength: Your likeability
Your weakness: You never feel satisfied
Your power color: Bright yellow
Your power symbol: Asterisk
Your power month: May

What You Really Think Of Your Friends
Yong Xiang is your soulmate.
You truly love Yong Xiang.
You consider Yong Qiang your true friend.
You know that Yvonne is always thinking of you.
You'll remember Charmaine for the rest of your life.
You secretly think Dickson is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.
You secretly think that Geok Choon is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.
You secretly think that Mori is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Mori changes lovers faster than underwear.
You secretly think Yi Xiang is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Yi Xiang has a hidden internet romance.

Your Love Style is Eros
For you, love is all about the passion!And chances are, you're currently in love.You have a strong physical response to love...And you are great at committing (As long as the person makes your toes curl!)



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You are 33% Libra


Your Values Profile
Loyalty:
You value loyalty a fair amount.You're loyal to your friends... to a point.But if they cross you, you will reconsider your loyalties.Staying true to others is important to you, but you also stay true to yourself.
Honesty:
You don't really value honesty.You do value getting your way, no matter what.And if a little lying is required to do that, no problem.A few white lies never hurt anyone (at least, that's what you tell yourself!)
Generosity:
You don't really value generosity.Your needs always come first, no matter what.And you'll possibly help someone else out...But only if it helps you in return.
Humility:
You value humility a fair amount.You tend to be an easy going, humble person.But occasionally your ego takes over.You have a slight competitive streak - and the need to be the best.
Tolerance:
You value tolerance highly.Not only do you enjoy the company of those very different from you...You do all that you can to seek it out interesting and unique friends.You think there are many truths in life, and you're open to many of them.


You are 53% Leo


You Have Your Sarcastic Moments
While you're not sarcastic at all times, you definitely have a cynical edge.In your opinion, not all people are annoying. Some are dead!And although you do have your genuine moments, you can't help getting your zingers in.Some people might be a little hurt by your sarcasm, but it's more likely they think you're hilarious.



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Your Hidden Talent
You have the natural talent of rocking the boat, thwarting the system.And while this may not seem big, it can be.It's people like you who serve as the catalysts to major cultural changes.You're just a bit behind the scenes, so no one really notices.


Your Inner Blood Type is Type B
You follow your own rules in life, even if you change the rules every day.Sure, you tend to be off the wall and unpredictable, but that's what makes you lovable.And even though you're a wild child, you have the tools to be a great success.You are able to concentrate intently - and make the impossible possible.
You are most compatible with: B and AB
Famous Type B's: Leonardo Di Caprio and



You Are 50% Weird
Normal enough to know that you're weird...But too damn weird to do anything about it!


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i'm getting abit emo again..mabbe is juz jay's song making me into this kind of mood again..lol..

unloved and unwanted...tho i think is nt exactly true..or should i put it this way, i do have friends who care abt me but those that i really wish that they will take notice of me doesn't even noe that i'm alive..

ate pizza hut today..i treated them..haha..i'm juz feeling generous or more like, i'm feeling guilty for shouting at my grandma....

i admit that i'm overbearing at times, esp at hme..mabbe i juz wana attract attention but sometimes is juz that i'm so bored that i'm willing to do anything to make them play with me..i cnt believe that i'm envying little kids...they have pple who wan to play with them all the time and pple doesn't even spare me like 5 mins to play with me la..unfair man..


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Wednesday, August 09, 2006

i'm a true blue slacker...din go to thinkers in the end..cuz i fell aslp once i reached hme...

we started learning the pattern today..it is weird, cuz some of the stances are new...kenji is super funny today la, but we gt into a serious discussion abt jap and the ndp..lol...

saw aozorapedaru on youtube juz nw..matsujun hairstyle is so...it's even longer than kame's hair la..but he still looks gd..

oh ya...i enjoyed this yr's national day celebration..miracle...this is truly the 1st time i felt that i'm part of the grp instead of being at one corner...nigel is funny...i'm glad that he and riah has started talking..at least they are willing to put their arms around each other and sing the national songs...

mabbee i'm really becoming more corrupted..


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Monday, August 07, 2006

fun day today...have a bball match with yichuan's team today...i admit that he's gd..haha..it was a great game except that daffi gt angry with hardi...i think that their behaviour today sux...it's nt that it is life-and-death matter and there they go, trying to pick on a fight with each other...

i think that yi chuan is nice la...

gt on the same bus with him twice today...ureshii...

tml is national daycelebrations..i juz wish that schs can skip all these stupid stuff...i mean, is sorta useless anyway..no1 really bother to listen to it..might be going over to thinkers to help out...i hope PW can end soon..it's giving me a real headache..i dun even feel like doing it la...such a waste of time..arghh..

i left my pencilcase in sch..i cnt believe that i'm so dumb...hw m i going to do the work if i have no stationary?

i'm hungry...


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Saturday, August 05, 2006

i wonder hw many pple read my blog...sometimes i really wish to put a password so tat only pple tat i trust can read it..tho there are nt many out there..

ate chili crab today..oishii dane...ima onaka ga ippai..the crabs that my auntie bought are super huge la..nice..

went to NUS lib today...is damn big la..i wana a personal lib liddat aso..but muri da..i saw some of the books which are super nice la..mabbe i should make it a point to go to the lib everyday..hehe..

yuen chuen din go to ytd's training..and darren really look like a duck la..his way of walking is so funny..i juz cnt stop laughing..

there is a funeral at my blk starting frm ytd...so sad sia..i heard that the person is a grad..it's such a pity..she's still so young..


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Friday, August 04, 2006

slept in a2 today..wah..was abit embarrassing cuz i slpt on yongxiang's clothes and i din even notice la...i cnt believe that i was so tired tha i fell aslp while studying..but the aircon made me slpy..

the bball competition was intense..lost 3 games and won 2..lousy scores..plus the stupid fact that my stomach was hurting like hell...i think is either the stupid sit-ups which made my stomach cramp up or wad..

tml is training again..i hope that they stop making us do push-ups..my arms always hurt the nxt day..muscle ache..


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Thursday, August 03, 2006

i feel as if i have been abandoning my friends..i have nt gotten in touch with some of them in a long long time..

today's lessons were great! we din do much things except slacking...lol..i tot that since promos are coming, pple will be more motivated to work hard but apparently, my class is a weird class..

tml is the bball competition..i'm hoping that my team will at least get into the upper 4 so that we will be able to compete with mingyi and yongxiang's team..it will be great if we can win them but i doubt so..i really cnt wait for tml..

i have already decided nt to think abt it any longer, juz let nature takes its course..tho i'm hoping tat my wish will come true..

tml is aso the jap exam..i'm getting nervous..the thing is that i haven been revising my jap so i still have lotsa more to work on but time is nt waiting for me..sad...

gt my report book today..dun wish to talk abt it..

i'm so glad that i'm born in singapore..


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Tuesday, August 01, 2006

fell aslp in class today..jas said that they couldn't wake me up..guess i fell into a deep slp ar? i having been feeling very very tired these few days..i guess stuff have been draining my energy..

i dreamt abt popo killing another old woman at a staircase but den i dun think it will be true..den my 1st auntie was nearly killed by her too but den luckily she ran away juz in time..de n i met her at the mrt station..it was really a weird dream..

went for tkd today..nt bad..it's juz kicking..had a fun time today...it greatly reduced my stress level..we were all poking each other and laughing so hard..

hmm..i tired again nw..i will blog again when i have the time..


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