my mind is in a mess right nw..i noe that i shouldn't be thinking of all these rubbish stuff but i cannot stop myself. i dun really get it y my class pple can be so happy everyday when i struggle even to move my butt to sch..i keep on telling myself that wad i dun c, i will forget but it does nt happen..my eyes wun allow me to do so..

read lie ai jui ren 12 liao..i cannot imagine it being true..but i'm sure i wun be like the 2 main characters..haha..

basketball...no matter wad i do, it will juz integrate into part of my life. Y? is kami sama planning to torture me in tis way? there is no clear road for me to take...should i or should i not? i really dunno wad to do..

confidence? i dun have..maybe i'm juz a coward afterall..but do i wan to hear the ans?the ans will give me an insight but i dread the ans..

someone once told me," dun try to pretend to be strong if u aren't. If u wanna cry, juz cry ur heart out."But i juz cnt do it..it is damn embarassing and i dun wan pple's pity..

juz hw?
my decision?

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
i criedat 11:43 PM|

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