my mind is in a mess right nw..i noe that i shouldn't be thinking of all these rubbish stuff but i cannot stop myself. i dun really get it y my class pple can be so happy everyday when i struggle even to move my butt to sch..i keep on telling myself that wad i dun c, i will forget but it does nt happen..my eyes wun allow me to do so..

read lie ai jui ren 12 liao..i cannot imagine it being true..but i'm sure i wun be like the 2 main characters..haha..

basketball...no matter wad i do, it will juz integrate into part of my life. Y? is kami sama planning to torture me in tis way? there is no clear road for me to take...should i or should i not? i really dunno wad to do..

confidence? i dun have..maybe i'm juz a coward afterall..but do i wan to hear the ans?the ans will give me an insight but i dread the ans..

someone once told me," dun try to pretend to be strong if u aren't. If u wanna cry, juz cry ur heart out."But i juz cnt do it..it is damn embarassing and i dun wan pple's pity..

juz hw?
my decision?

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
i criedat 11:43 PM|

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went to ballet under the stars ytd..it sort of sux la..having to sit on the grass and apparrently, my class doesn't noe what is punctuality..the pizza suxz too..it doesn't even look nice la and then it's cold..a definite no-no..

he was so sweet on thur..haha..helping me to buy the chicken wings tho he could have nt gotten for me..

went to jac's place juz nw...a familiar place to me..

i gt my salary too and bought some new comics..i wish that i have like another 48 hrs everyday la..that will be gd..a race against time..

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
i criedat 8:54 PM|

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i'm been getting weird tots these few days..i do agree that i know than what i have been letting on but it doesn't mean that i have to share these tots and knowledge with other pple. The less that they know abt it, the better their lives will be..


jap exam nxt thur..i wonder if i will pass..i have nt been touching my work 4 quite a long time...

haha..long distance sex..with yamapi..hw i wish..

i dunno wad to say liao..damn tired of typing entries...

i'll stop here for nw..

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
i criedat 12:03 AM|

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i'm getting the feeling that pple is hating me rite nw tho i dunno y..

to say the truth, i really cnt be bothered abt anything rite nw..so wad if i am left alone?
they juz tot that they r so superior and that they can do anything that they wan..let them be..

pple are pissing me off these few days too..i dun really mind those remarks but the thing is that some pple can be damn insensitive when it comes to things that i dun really wan other pple to noe..they juz cnt learn to keep their mouth shut..

my results are that that gd this time round tho i'm happy that my parents doesn't nd to see the teachers..and i passed my grading!!i'm officially a blue belt nw..juz like less than 1 yr to go to become a black belt den i can quit..

sometimes i really wan to have the ability to read pple's mind. At least i will noe if they are truly my frens or they juz pretend to be my frens when they are nt my frens..or to put it this way, they think that i think that i am their friend. as i have put it bluntly across to some of them, i have no frens..for me, i guess that every1 is acquaintances..cuz being a fren is a sacred thing in itself. Can u say that u are that person's fren when u only think abt urself? That is nt the definition of a friend..

i wish that every1 will disappear from this world, toki doki i mean..to let me have some breathing space..

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
i criedat 12:25 AM|

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went out wif jeremy today...

had much fun...tanoshikatta...

nande?

wakaranai....

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
i criedat 9:06 PM|

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back from a long break...haha..if there is a break..

i have been watching too many shows again...
sometimes, i really cnt stand pple...i noe that i should nt do that but then the thing is that i cnt control myself...

i really cnt stand pple who break their promise..it's damn irritating la...

i swear i'm going to have sex with yamapi b4 i die..

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
i criedat 2:24 PM|

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i'm really wu yao ke jiu le...watching prince of tennis when i should be studying for my exams la..but the thing is, i dun even feel like touching the books at all...

went to IMM with my mum and auntie today. They are really damn pro la. My leg was aching when we gt back hme,hehe, and i fell aslp right after reaching hme...imagine the tiredness that i felt..

can i really free myself frm those tots of ine that haunt me all day long? i feel that if i'm very very very tired, i wun be able to have those tots anymore so i keep on forcing myself..but i realise that if i watch shows, i can achieve the same results w/o torturing myself....

juz a few more days...

i wish that this yr will faster end...

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
i criedat 3:29 AM|

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ok, i admit that i have nt been updating my blog.

i have been so lazy this few weeks. haven even touched anything that is impt to my studies. I'm going to be so dead in the midyrs.

ytd was the chinese oral exam. The teachers were very nice. I cnt believe that they laughed at a comment of mine cuz i dun exactly see the funny side of it.

i am starting to hate my commitments nw. Mabbe nt jap but others like tkd. Dun have the motivation to do anything. I really feel like sitting at home all day long doing nth. I guess i'm a lazybum after all.

midyrs is in juz 3 days..

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
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