hw can u take it out on pple juz becuz u're unhappy?

cuz of a little error, a person's life might be lost. There's no use saying sorry to a person hu is dead. the impact has been made.

tezuka is really wonderful. sacrificing to gain smth..reminds me of fma..

do i have such a strong will?
will i be able to make the choice which is for the good for all?

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
i criedat 1:56 AM|

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i'm bored. reading through my previous posts, i realise that i wrote lots of crap..haha...

maybe that a way to destress but some pple might mistake it for something else..

i hate assumptions..y muz pple have assumptions when they din even noe anything abt u..but i guess every1 is bias in a way...

fell aslp during chinese class today. lao shi tot that i have been watching world cup but i dun understand the big fuss abt it..the only time i watch is that i have put a bet on the team..

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
i criedat 1:01 AM|

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y is everyone changing steads do fast these days?
is it that fun to do that?
i tot that mei leng is still going steady wif ming shen but den it seems that they have broke up liao.
most of the couples that i noe of does nt stead for very long nowsaday. maybe it is the casual dating or wad..

study study study...
determination..
anime roxz..
i'm going to push myself to the limits..

i love yamapi!!!!

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
i criedat 3:36 AM|

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いま大きい熊が欲しいだ。誰かあたしがくれますか。

started on onegai teacher..nt bad..oh ya..i tink that he is my slave is hentai..haha..but i'm going to try to finish it anyway..

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
i criedat 3:54 AM|

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slept early ytd so din blog..the late hrs is getting to me liao..having sore throat..hate it man..

ytd's training was ok only..i din bring guards so i couldn't spar but i dun think i can anyway. Tue's sparring, midori and i were sparring and she kicked my knee so nw i have a big nice blue black on my right knee...but i like it..it's so nice..haha..sadistic..

maybe it was my imagination but he smelled nice ytd..the fragrance frm the soap was very strong i think..i was surprised..sweating and yet still can smell the soap smell..it's very weird...

A quiz that my friend compiled..

1. What kind of a first date would you like?
hmm...standing at the seashore gazing out at the sea..

2.What will you do if you like a guy?
erm..nothing? unless it's yamapi..lol..

3.What turns you on?
when a guy is kakkoii
physically fit
humourous
being his real self
being macho
being stubborn?

4. What turns you off?
liar
backstabber
two-timer
whiny guys
sissies

5. Would you want your guy to wearboxers or briefs?
erm...boxers? tho i think that nt wearing underwear will be fine too...haha..

Wah, there are still more but i'm tired liao..continue someday ba..
anyway, some of my ans are rubbish...haha..i'm damn bored...



+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
i criedat 12:20 AM|

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how much can i tolerate from a guy that i like?

wen gave me egs like nt closing the door when in the toilet blah blah but i dun really mind all that. I'm still searching for a thing that i cnt tolerate.

mabbe some egs are lying, adultery or screaming profanities at me.

i'm weird. I wun mind if my guy goes for 1 nite stand but i will mind a lot if he gets a mistress. reasoning is that he might nt be in control of that particular moment but to install a mistress, it shows my failing. However, exception is that he takes a different girl every nite.

imagine urself waking up to find a person besides u, whom u have to live with the rest of ur life. U have to share everything, including toothpaste. N u have to honor and obey him for the rest of ur life. I think the 2nd part will be super hard la. obey, Even if he ask u to eat shit, u have to do it? that's rediculous. I might obey the more reasonable stuff at 1st cuz it's new to me but after a while, i think i will find it boring and drop the whole idea.

hmm...i am cold ar?
sometimes i agree but den it depends on hu i hang out wif ba..
i do get those 'tots' ocassionally juz tat i dun voice them out. they sounds stupid dakara.

maybe one day i will really be in nd of love. But that will be the time when i have really lost my pillars of support and i dun feel like libing anymore. and the future looks bleak to be. I will then allow myself to be comforted. b4 that, i wun.

i wan a guy hu is like yamapi in every single way la, even his faults. tho i dun think they are faults la, like being grumpy in the morn. I guess it wun matter to me anyway.haha..i'm happy to learn that at least we can c the human side of him, unlike some entertainers hu pretends to be perfect.

i aso dunno hw we gt to the topic of hen and dickson but we have different views on the both of them. It's fun to hear other's opinion on pple cuz that way, u will learn more abt the 2 pple. Different experience means different views. Some pple will only show a certain side to certain pple so opinions can be helpful too.

i muz be grateful that i am close to them in a way that some will nv ever get the chance to be in the same shoes as me.

to say the truth, i cnt imagine myself having a husband. As wen said, the marriage will be very interesting cuz i m stubborn and i like stubborn guys. So stubborn +stubborn =?
testing our limits.

my left hand training is coming along very well. i love left hands..haha...

today went to singapore art museum and SEA civilisation museum. There are lots of interesting stuffs to c but we din get to tour the whole place cuz of lack of time. Mr lee is such a nice guy. He drove us to the 2 places.

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
i criedat 11:52 PM|

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my hand is aching nw...really aching...
i din noe that holding chopsticks properly wif my left hand is such a chore. The stupid hand of mine refuse to listen to my commands..
at least i finally can pick up objects with it, nt marbles la..hehe..irregular-shaped pebbles...i think it was bcuz i pushed myself and willed myself nt to touch the com b4 picking up some of the pebbles...i gt almost all the pebbles except for 2..yay!!!

went for the new water plant today. It was quite boring but i gt to see leslie and lawrence there. I din even notice they were there until leslie tapped me on the shoulder la..arghh...hw can i miss them?!!! they are so cute...nv changed since i saw them at camp. haha..they are short for p6 guys..but damn cute..AND i still cnt tell them apart...haiz...

saw wei rong there too. maybe i am too harsh on him? but i still cnt forget the "words" he said to me..i din even provoke him la..if he wana vent his anger on someone, it shouldn't be me lor..i din even do anything. That's another thing that i hate, besides accusing me of something that i din do, that is blaming me for things which had turned out wrong. Maybe it's my fault for going out with him in the 1st place but i shouldn't be subjected to this kind of verbal abuse right? as much as i would like to blame it on my ignorance, it still cnt change the fact that i "toyed" with his feelings. I seriously din noe that it will turn out to be so bad. nah..shouldn't think abt it anymore. thing is over and done with anyway.

i am finally over my mood swing. It had been a tough week for me, worrying abt pw and my gp exams plus everything,but everything is resolved. Pw is coming along nicely and my gp exam is over.

my eyes are closing nw..

oyasumi...

p.s. to unknown> would u mind telling me ur identity so that i wun kill my brain cells?

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
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