y is it that guys must bottle up their feelings? They are weird. It is super obvious that he is angry but when i asked if he's ok, he juz pretend that he is fine. HELLO!! i'm nt blind. I can see when pple are angry and even tho the anger is nt directed at me, i feel very uncomfortable.

training was ok today. Kenji, jac and gerald went. oh ya, sylvia too. i din bring my guards. Most of them din bring too. End up bernice and yuen cheun sparring together. I think that yuen cheun is vey pitiful. He gt kicked twice at the groin area. Ouch!!

jeremy was saying that he is going to flunk his chinese. I hope nt. I think that he's so cute la. wish that he's my bro tho but i wonder if we will still be close if we live under the same roof. Maybe we will quarrel.

I've been reading lotsa of incest books lately. I really dunno y but since the time when i noe what incest means, i have been noticing it in books more often. That's very freaky. I juz read a library book where the girl that sex with her brother since ten yeas old and because of some reason, the brother has to move to the US and after that, he turned gay and later dies of AIDS.

will i be committing incest if i have a beautiful older brother? i really dunno but i might. That's a scary thought in itself. Seeing ur lover everyday but have to keep it hidden from pple. plus the fact that u cnt marry ur brother. haiz..should nt think abt it anymore. I should say that i'm blessed that i do nt have a gd looking brother...lol...i'm being mean again.

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
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