sat

wen finally managed to talk xiao liang nt to make me go all the way to seragoon. I was super tired after tkd la. Finally saw jeremy after such a long time. Miss him lots...haha..nt in the couple sense but in a good fren..cuz he is so busy preparing 4 his 'o's..i hope he do better den me la...he gt lots to catch up...at least he's nt pissed off wif von anymore. He has changed. I mean physically..kk..alittle more broadshouldered and taller...but inside, he din change..he's still as close-lipped as ever but the fact tat i managed to get alot of stuff out of him means tat he is ok wif me rite?
sorta hugged jeremy when he went hme...i have an instict tat i wun c him 4 a long time again. I miss his quietness. He understands wad i wana say even tho i din say the thing out loud. Stuff tat i wun tell pple aso will be coaxed out by him. I guess it was since the jacuzzi pool incident together tat we had a private conversation.i wun wan to lose a fren like him.
i dun tink he share alot of stuff wif other teens. He keeps lotsa stuff to himself...
hen and his gf,irving and his gf, kangwei, wen n andy, jeremy, von,biqi, auntie jim n mc, uncles, raymond,bing liang n qing hong and lotsa of pple went.
biqi's chalet wasn't really wad i expected. But it was still ok at the end. Everybody slpt.woke up super early la but in the end reached toa payoh so early...i could have slpt 1/2 an hr more.

sun

grading for super fun. I was nt nervous at all, which was the 1st for me. I think tat the sparring 4 great. I sorta pity my opponent. She was thrashed by me. I think I kicked her in all the painful places. Ouch..
din get to really slp..is such a waste of time to travel so far la. Still has tat lit project.I slpt like crazy after charmaine and jas went hme...slpt until 7 tis morn...lol...

i felt bad..did smth i shouldn't do..but i dun really regret it..i love the thrill.
i feel smth. it cnt be described. passion maybe? i really dunno.

i'm glad tat jeremy msg me today. took my mind of things. felt much more relieved.

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
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