I'm on the mrt and sitting across me was yong xiang and the malay guy from his class. Yong Xiang was slping while that malay guy was reading a book. Then, the mrt stopped at dover mrt station. I went out and i saw kelvin. I walked up to him and said hi and he aso did the same.
Den he went into the mrt.

I started to walk and suddenly, i was in a forest clearing. All the teens pple were there. henry kor came up to me and said tat he was very disappointed in me and that they are all going to cut off ties with me. I was upset but i pretended tat i dun mind abt it. Den jeremy stepped out and said tat he wana quit too.

we were both ushered to the cliff and was forced to jump off it. I felt the blood rushing to my face and i woke up.

den i saw yong xiang at the bus stop. A coincidence or wad?

anyway, maybe the dream signify that i am nt tat impt to teens club or that henry kor does not believe in me?

i always finds tat he treats me like a small little kid that needs protection. He refuses to tell me anything that he thinks will harm or corrupt me. He refuses to bring me to places where dickson and all the others go. The fact tat i was at warren golf club was bcuz it was near to my school. He thinks that i m nt old enough to noe anything. Even recently, kangwei, henry kor and his gf went back to look for us when they found that I had wandered away. Is it a sign that they care abt me or they treat me as a kid?
when they were drinking, they refuses to ;et me drink although irving was also underage.
When i was nt very slpy, henry kor got up and offered his place to let me slp although he was very tired. It was only when I gt up and told him that i m nt slpy tat he went to slp. I was glad of the attention that he gave me. At least he did nt forget abt me but i feel that we have a gap btw us. for god noes wad reason.

maybe i should call his gf da sao.

maybe i should go to the chalet.

my bro is having exams tis week so i'm nt allowed to disturb him.

giving in is a virtue?

flame of recca=>jeremy
basketball=>kelvin
hockey=>yong xiang
comic=>jacqueline
pig=>kestrel
rich=>xiaoling
lit=>wen
tweetybird=>von
jay=>kelvin
yellow=>henry kor
purple=>jiawen
soccer=>jun han
black=>jeremy
gay=>nigel
poetry=>josh
wire=>dad
doors=>dad
homework=>mum
internet=>wen
club=>wen
tkd=>thomas
chinese=>bin hong

keeping mum abt everything. I guess that's nt the way to go. Maybe juz like mrs meya says, i have been hiding behind's everybody's opinion and i m afraid to give my true opinion. hmm, seems like i have gone thr that in one of the previous post?

i wish tat yamapi is in sg and is mine.
lonely nites ahead.
i'm going to tire myself so tat my mind wun wander.

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
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