i swear i m nt going to walk near the basketball court again. It juz made my mood worse. I help help it but i feel like crying everytime i go near basketball court. It suxz. i feel like going for a brain operation to get rid of bad memories. sometimes, these memories will juz pop out of nowhere and haunt me.

I realise y i did nt wan to continue working in the first place. It suxz. Politics again. I cnt seem to get out of the vicious circle. I hate working life and this is juz the 2nd day tat i'm working. I cnt imagine hw long i m going to stand it.

everybody is starting to get busy. y do i feel like i m nt tat busy when my schedule is so packed?
i feel tat maybe i have overworked myself. mentally and physically. Denying myself the pleasure of going out, of doing alot of things tat i like. To force myself to take up so many commitments until i am reaching hme late at nite everyday.

work on mon
tkd training on tue
work on wed
jap lesson on thur
tkd training on fri
cip on sat
work on sun

ok, that's all. With my irregular malay lessons and the photography course that i m in, i wonder if my results will drop. I hope not. Anyway, i dun really study at hme so i dun think so.

oh..n i gt my pay at pay pal. in US dollars. At least they are extra bucks for me. Nw, i juz nd to reach 200 sing dollars to withdraw the money. YAY!!

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
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