what does respect means to u. We r expected to write an essay on tat. It's dumb. I mean, can juz an essay changed anything? I dun tink so. N it is like none of my business and y muz i be dragged inside. I hate tis. HATE. Is a strong word. But it's true in the sense tat u can hate any1 in a matter of seconds. I want peace and what my class is doing doesn't help. I dunno wad others think abt me but den I dun exactly hate any1 in tis class. I am juz indifferent. Daffi was like asking me if i dislike him or smth but it is nt true. i juz dun have anytink to say to him and cannot think of smth to say to him to. But i do smile at him when I c him, do i not? Mabbe sometimes josh will get on my nerves when he goes too far but I cool down very quickly too. So is not exactly hate.

I m super pissed off too. Y do they get to go but nt me? M i so invisible tat no1 thinks of me b4 any1 else. I mean, my grade is one of the better 1 but i m nt chosen. At least I should be given a chance to say if I want to go anot.

Jac is right. We should meet up once in while so as nt to lose our friendship. It is getting harder and harder to meet up wif each other as we have more and more things to do.but i believe tat our friendship can last. I mean, we have been friends for more than 10 yrs, 11 to be exactly so i tink our friendship can stand the test of time. We have been thr so much, quarrel, cold wars but yet in the end, we r still friends.

my head hurts like hell. Guess it's due to the fact tat i din slpt well for the last few weeks or mabbe months.

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
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