What does it mean to be a chinese? Am I getting further and further away from the chinese culture?

In the past, I can proudly say that I am a chinese. I can speak and write chinese fluently. But as time goes by, the number of people who speak chinese has decreased dramatically. I no longer hear chinese being spoken by the younger generation. It is the same case with my friends. Those friends whom I can still speak chinese to are my friends from primary school. In my current school, not many of them speak chinese. It is like a totally new world out there.

Even the feeling of the chinese festivals are so different. There is no more differentiation as it is a chinese or other races holidays but just a rest day in general. There isn't any mood of celebration unlike in china, you can feel that the mood is much more lighter as everyone shopped for the new year goodies and such.

The frantic pace of life have made us more irritated by obstacles. Can we spare a day to take care of the elderly like in the past? It is not exactly possible unless it is a free-lance job. Can the government blame the people for not being filial when no one is going to be at home to care for them? Is it that bad to send them to an old folk's home. Some people are bad examples; they dun go and look on them every week but some do. I dun get the idea of why going to an old folk home is such a big deal.but some old folk home are simply horrible. They take a long time to check on the old folk when the ring the bell.

So am I truly a chinese or just a potato eating chinese?

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
i criedat 1:03 AM|

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