went to club today. There's no tution but played ice-breaker games. Wei chen and wei ming are so cute sia. they really look alike lor. made the two newcomers so blur..haha..n jun han has grown taller aso. they gt their christmas presents today. It's great to be a kid man, if I can turn back time, I wana be one forever...

I am sitting at a table,doing my homework while dickson,henry and kelvin are playing pool. Once in a while, I will look up and watch them play. At around 5pm, Jeremy will reach and we will take a bus to bukit merah.

That's what we used to do last time. Why has everything changed? I admit that I was there cuz it was after school and the venue is just opp my school (If it is in a shopping mall, I wouldn't go), but it is nt just me. Everything has changed.

I still rem the song:

All around us, things are changing
seasons come and seasons go
very few things last forever
but deep in our hearts we know

forever friends forever friends
bound by love that time can't take away
forever friends forever friends
caring in a special kind of way
heart to heart and hand in hand
we'll stand until the end
love's forever when you're forever friends

And though we know it's time to say goodbye
we will always be together
and here's the reason why

forever friends forever friends
bound by love that time can't take away
forever friends forever friends
caring in a special kind of way
heart to heart and hand in hand
we'll stand until the end
love's forever when you're forever friends

love's forever when
you're forever friends

what happened to the promise that we made? Are they all lies?
If it is between the newer teens, I can still accept it. But then the problem is nt juz them. Why did the relationship between the teens have become so strained? Jiawen and dickson are not talking to each other for god knows wad reason; kelvin and melissa; jeremy and yvonne, von and stella; jiawen and von; jiawen and stella;dickson and geok; kangwei stopped coming to club;dickson too;henry is too absorbed in his own things..

everyone seems to have their own stuff to do. When teens was closed, they said that they will try to come to every gathering but in the end, it's always just the few of us who went. Then wad is the use of meeting?

Is the society that demanding that they can't spare a few hours to go out together? or are they glad to give an excuse not to go for the gathering, glad that teens has closed so that they wun need to go anymore? It's not as if they have no time to spare. Like dickson and alot of the others, they rather stay at hme or go out with their friends instead.

Am I the one who sees things this way or i m juz bias?

i think that I have changed, but for the better or the worse? One example is that I have once said that I hate little kids but nw, I feel that they are nt that bad(except for those who likes to cry cuz i can't stand pple crying..makes me want to go as far as possible). At least they are honest and they enjoy ur company and they are fun to play wif too. Unlike some..


Anyway, enough of this. Maybe the hurt will go away if I dun think abt it anymore.

Homework, homework and more homework...
This yr is indeed very demanding of my time and energy. My first weekend and there are so much things to do. Wonder hw am i going to get through this yr. GP project on abortion, the hist essay that muz be handed in on mon, the 600 words chinese essay, the 900 words chinese reviews, the literature short commentry which I think is nt at all short when we have to write half a page for a passage and there at 6 passages meaning that we have to write at least 3 pages.Argh...and I have nt done a single piece of hmewrk today.

finish watching saw. The show was not as interesting as the second 1 or am I having too high an expectation huh? Maybe that's the reason I can't achieve gd results. I get distracted too easily. Short attention span..anyonecan help me overcome this problem? haha...i get bored easily nowsaday. Dunno y but den it seems that everything that I do doesn't make sense to me right nw. wad am i studying for? y do i take up tkd in the 1st place? sometimes I really feel that if i juz stay at hme and rot, I will feel much better but my inner self is telling me that u r juz decieving urself. R u sure that you want to stay that way all ur life? I have made a few good friends in tkd. I guess it is compensation for wad i have lost as a result. opportunity cost...haha...going into econs term right nw.

gtg le..tkd grading is in a few hrs time...wish me luck..if i can pass tis grading, i will nd to spar nxt grading...

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
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