It's truly weird. Freaks me out. The moment I was thinking of him, he called. Too bad I couldn't go out with him. I got work. Money is more important to me. LOL. I am not even sure on what grounds we are standing. It seems like the more I do not want to think about him, the more he intrudes into my life. The machinery in my brain seems not to listen to my will and determination.

Yesterday, I watched kakashi and the mummy returns. Both shows are not bad though I thought that the mummy returns is not exactly those horror types of movies but there is enough action scenes to catch my attention.

Today is the last day of work. I hope that I can get my money soon. Haha. After today, I am going to stay in library forever. Hehe. The job just let me know that I am not using my brain at all. It is so monotonous.

If I had a choice, I would want to go on studying all my life. Just kidding. Of course I will like sleeping all my life away also. Sometimes, I really wonder what is life all about. Are we living because we have not yet finish the punishments of our sins? Or are we just made to suffer? Once and again, to suffer disappointments, to learn not to cry, to learn to take things in your stride, to learn self-defence, to learn that money is everything in this world. Sometimes, I even wonder if love can be bought by money. For those people who are money-minded, I guess they can programme themselves to love someone who is wealthy. Maybe it is not true love, but how many marriages are there in this world that involve true love? Most of the marriages end up have adulteries, or even divorces. So what is the use of pursuing true love?

Pursuing perfection...is there such a thing?

+ let me die; i'm sorry__]]*
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